Visions for Inner Peace

                                                 SELF -BETRAYAL 

I saw this today, it got me thinking about my last post here, I think ‘self-betrayal sums it up so perfectly. We were taught to give our power away, we were taught that’s how we receive love. Changing that program starts with choosing ourselves. Giving ourselves the love we need, so our starving hearts don’t lead us to acts of self-betrayal. Learning to nourish and feed your own soul is always the answer. It reminds me too of a quote by I can’t remember who, that says something along the lines of “you think when everything works out you will be at peace, but when you’re at peace everything works out.” - I think it was OSHO. 

It really is true. When you love yourself, everything works out. Our yearning for love from an external source complicates everything, as well as distorts our primal survival instinct - which IS to protect one's own life force, when we’re not doing that, we’re operating from a flight or fight state. When our inner love tank is full, we have more to give and we can more joyfully receive, in peace and trust - and we must not underestimate how many of us struggle to receive love, for it is of course terrifying to drink from a fountain we fear may not flow freely forever, when the fear is such we drink from it greedily and anxiously, without ever really feeling safe. Think about how complicated that alone is - I need you, fountain, but I don’t trust you. Giving ourselves enough love not only liberates us but our loved ones too, for it says to them, I have enough, so I can revel in the abundance of your love too. A full heart never leaves a loving encounter with others dissatisfied, because there was never a thirst to be quenched. How beautiful to love this way.

I think it’s pressing to add, being as these questions do come up. Unconditional love begins with self, it is extended to others as an energy, not necessarily a presence. To unconditionally love self means to protect your own life force first, this means that some people, places, or circumstances can only be loved safely at a distance. Many people in this community tolerate abuse and other dysfunction under the guise of loving someone unconditionally and this is a dangerous misinterpretation of the twin flame journey. In all life matters, we must put our own safety and happiness first. It’s ok to unconditionally love the crocodile, for example, but it’s unwise to sleep alongside it or swim in its waters. 

If you want to start loving yourself, start by making a list detailing all of how you betray yourself and then cut that shit out. Don’t worry if you fall off the wagon from time to time, revert to your list, revert to self-love, it is not a crime to begin, again and again, it’s simply the reality of perseverance and stamina, every time we start over, we are winners. 

Stop focussing on who betrayed you, and focus on how you are betraying yourself.